Thoughts at night

Only at 1:30 am does my brain get flooded with thoughts.

My doc note expires in a few days.

I can't go back to work until I can handle 25 to 30 hours a week.  But normally it will be more.  I know I can't do that yet. My job is not sitting. It's working out with adults, taking them to jobs sites and helping them do their jobs.

I barely manage to do needed daily stuff here, get the mail and shower.

I think I am going to have to take until next month to get my back fully healed. I can't reinjure on the job and I can't afford to loose my benefits...so close to work insurance...so...close...

All this has me anxious and scared.  Not wanting to baby this but also not wanting to push and mess myself up worse.

I'll call doctors tomorrow and get new appointments after I argue with insurance because they don't want to pay for specialists.